Wednesday, October 26, 2016


i'm so moved by this extraordinary prenup video of karel marquez and her fiancé, that i've been playing it over and over again and even shared it to my friends. the words were perfect, the scenes...

maybe i like it because it's like seeing my own happy ending.

congratulations karel, sa wakas :)

Sunday, October 16, 2016

DIY skirt and other things

what a joy to be able to actually make and wear something you just once had in mind! i made this not a very long time ago along with another skirt which i've upcycled from a worn out camouflage short pants. this one is just a simple pencil skirt made with a yard of stretchy fabric. not complicated at all until i added my "signature" slit over there as a newbie slash adventurer, and so i messed up with the seam alignment, scratched my head, decided to make things right and then tada! i'm so grateful that this turned out alright ;)

seeing other hobbyists share their work and knowledge they've learned through their sewing (or actually any craft) journey makes me eager and inspired to go ahead try things out. and each time i was able to prove that when you put your heart to something that you want to fulfill, along with prayers and guidance from above, you will be able to do it!

just like how i got so inspired by Jon Bon Jovi, Mariah Carey, Switchfoot and many other artists to write, record, and perform songs a few years ago. i received lots of emails and inquiries then about how i did them, what drove me to write this song that song etc. and the truth is, during those times all i wanted was to express what's in my heart and i believe that it was God who taught me the words and played the melody in my mind because i can only remember the feeling but not the actual word selection and tuning. i don't know how to explain it further or if there's even a need to. but anyway, in a few weeks, hopefully i'll have the time to sit down, record and share some of the drafts that were squashed under my pillow. in the meantime, i'll reward myself with one of God's greatest gifts to mankind - sleep. Zzzz...

Thursday, September 29, 2016

4 truths about God in the midst of tragedy

someone asked me today about the life testimony of a woman i truly adore for her love of the Lord and her means of serving Him. so i had to google her up to make sure that i will be relaying the whole truth, nothing more and nothing less. and thankfully i found the video which i will link to later, watched it with tears in my eyes (ah! never mind, always happens) and got these 4 TRUTHS ABOUT GOD that i firmly believe we should all know and hold on to under whatever circumstance we are in:

1. GOD IS SOVEREIGN. He could stop something from happening BUT He did not.

2. GOD KNOWS EVERYTHING. He knows what is best for us.

3. GOD LOVES US. so much.

4. GOD IS HOLY, HE HAS NO MALICE. He does not purposely allow people to suffer unnecessarily.

i am sure that i did not come across these truths tonight for no reason. yes, they are not even new to me but this exact moment that i heard them again is God's answer to the silent queries spinning randomly in my head as the days pass.

i, too, sometimes question why bad things seem to happen to good people. being a Christian or obeying the Lord, resisting sin and choosing to do good in honor of Him, do not and cannot exempt one from problems, heartaches and other tragedies. but the difference it makes when you know the TRUTH about our Creator is you know that what men meant for evil, God meant for something good (Genesis 50:20). He can turn anything upside down, make all things work together for good to those who love Him (Romans 8:28). we have a choice to turn away from Him and then what? or to fully surrender to Him, trust that He is faithful, remember that He did not take me this far only to abandon me. i am just thankful that my options are so easy to weigh. i choose to be with my God.

and oh, here's the link to the video that i promised earlier. thank u for dropping by!


Tuesday, September 20, 2016

i will be here

tonight's the first time i heard the new version of this song by the same artist, Steven Curtis Chapman on Spotify. this song never fails to make me cry as i take each and every word to heart. i feel so overwhelmed by the kind of love it sings about; something so rare, seemingly impossible to exist these days but when you know that God is the one writing your love story, you get this weird feeling of joy and excitement, maybe teary-eyed and hopeful that His best is on his way.

the lyrics:

Tomorrow morning if you wake up
And the sun does not appear
I... I will be here
If in the dark we lose sight of love
Hold my hand and have no fear
'Cause I... I will be here

I will be here
When you feel like being quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen
And I will be here
When the laughter turns to crying
Through the winning, losing and trying
We'll be together
'Cause I will be here

Tomorrow morning if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I... I will be here
As sure as seasons were made for change
Our lifetimes were made for these years
So I... I will be here

I will be here
So you can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you
And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you mean to me
I will be here, hmmm

I will be true to the promise I have made
To you and to the One who gave you to me

And just as sure as seasons were made for change
Our lifetimes were made for these years
So I... I will be here
We'll be together
I will be here

Sunday, September 4, 2016

love is...

love endures forever. when you love someone, you don't give them up, you don't give them away. you take them back after they've ran away or made mistakes. love makes you go the extra mile even if the fuel has ran out because it would gladly walk and carry the load even if it doesn't understand, even if it doesn't make sense anymore, even when it hurts. love hopes for the best because love seeks the highest good of someone. only the good, only what's best. love is being the right one, instead of looking or waiting for the right one.

when you love someone, you do your best to take care, respect and never drag them to anywhere they are likely to suffer, anywhere they are likely to stumble or sin, anywhere they might die, emotionally, spiritually or physically because love is not selfish. it doesn't hunger or demand to be filled as it is not empty. love is the one who fills. love is the one who gives.

when you love someone, you thank and honor The One who created and gave them to you. therefore, you push them not towards yourself but back to Him who first loved us. it is impossible to truly love someone without knowing God's love. it is impossible to sustain love without The Source. God is love. He never fails, never gives up, and never rans out on all of us.

that, for me is the meaning of love.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7 New International Version (NIV)

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Friday, August 26, 2016

too much pain

Even if I should choose to boast, I would not be a fool, because I would be speaking the truth. But I refrain, so no one will think more of me than is warranted by what I do or say, or because of these surpassingly great revelations. Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

2 Corinthians 12:6‭-‬10 NIV

not just three but many, many times i asked the Lord to pluck me out of very hard situations i got myself into. i begged Him with tears because it was all too much and thought it would be best for me to be transported in another place and time. moments like that i noticed He becomes quiet and allows me to express my pain until i fall asleep.

the more i keep pain to myself and pretend i am strong, the more it stings when the night comes. my pain wasn't even the same level as Paul's but whatever it was, i realized the only way to heal the wound or the weakness is to recognize that it's there, admit that i cannot make it alone and then ask the Lord to reveal His power while going through it.

Wednesday, August 24, 2016

love well

Learning to Love Well

“Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.” He is broken. He is sorry. He has known how to love only in a limited way. The reach of his imagination stops at the possibility of joining the family help.

But the father said to his servants, “Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate. For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.” So they began to celebrate.

His father seems to not even hear the rehearsed speech. He quickly calls a servant and asks for clothes. He also wants a signet ring, an identifying signal of family, rushed out as well. The father’s final instruction is to throw a party, a feast in honor of his son’s return.

Here is the overwhelming truth: this is a wild love.

A love difficult to comprehend and more unsettling, a love we are unable to restrain. The flesh, the broken part of our humanity, longs to be in command, longs to be able to identify finite lines of understanding so that we can master that understanding, feel safe, and be in control. The love of this father is anything but safe and predictable.

There is an oft-quoted line from The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe in which Mr. Beaver is responding to young Lucy’s question about Aslan, the God-character in the story:

“He isn’t safe?” said Lucy.

“Safe?” said Mr. Beaver; “Who said anything about safe? ‘Course he isn’t safe. But he’s good. He’s the King, I tell you.”

God is passionately in love with you. Allow your imagination to stretch to its furthest reach, and then tell yourself you have barely passed your rooftop. There is an entire universe and beyond that can hardly contain the love that is waiting for you.

Stop trying to experience love on your own terms, and open yourself up to God. When you do, when you allow yourself to be truly known, you will discover within you a compulsion to give love away like you have never known. Love longs to be known. It is in that knowing and being known that we learn to love well.

this is day 6 of my love well devotional and i can't help but share this message. when i was younger and realized God's love for me after hearing His words in a Christian Church i first attended, i started praying "Lord, teach me how to love like you." maybe i took it lightly and thought it would be an easy thing to learn and do. but God seemed to take that prayer seriously and put me under circumstances that made me experience how difficult (almost impossible) it is to love like how He does!

it is still true until today that my heart is longing to be sure and safe, that my logic chooses whatever is more beneficial and more comfortable. i was asking the Lord to just pull me out of this kind of heart breaking situation because i cannot do it anymore, by myself, but He has always assured me that He didn't take me this far only to abandon me. hence, this message for me today.

have a blessed tuesday.