Saturday, December 31, 2016


why 2016 is the best year yet? well i...

fell in love with and witnessed the recovery of a typhoon- stricken town

half a year official experience in being a store manager for school supplies business and snackbar

learned how to drive, manually first then automatic. i'm not yet an expert but i'm no longer intimidated by jammed highways

not really that significant but i switched phones, may switch again early this year just because i want to

my son turned 4, and he's sweeter than ever

my faith and character was tested big time. my heart was broken but God's heart broke along with mine. He carried me through the storm where i learned more about the truth of who He really was, is and forever will be!

started not just one, but two micro businesses this year

learned about fabrics

learned how to sew pants, bags and scarves, willing to learn more

learned how to take care of myself again after being my last priority for more than six years

experienced an outpour of blessings that i have never experienced before!

realized that the enemy will do anything in its power to make you believe that life is not fair, that your skills and strength will make you succeed, that you can achieve anything all by yourself, that forgiveness, humbleness, understanding, patience, respect, sacrifice and obedience are all worthless. but God knows everything and no heartache, no real love offered to Him is ever wasted.

am so happy that God loves me!

i have many things to do but my goal for 2017: spread His love.


Wednesday, December 14, 2016

wonder woman mode

slept at 5AM this morning trying to be as productive as i could and my cooperative neurons yielded that i even had to force myself to get some rest. been doing looooooots of things lately and want to do more, sometimes i wish there's 36 hours in a day.

what makes me guilty sometimes is when i try to compute the hours or minutes that i spend "being" with my child. being physically present but mentally out there somewhere else for the purpose of stabilizing the two of us financially is just unfair to him i know. oh the struggles of being a single mom. someday i will try to write about it. it's hard and it can be draining being the sole provider, care taker, cook, teacher, playmate, coach, everything-in-one wonder woman but i am blessed by his existence and i wouldn't trade being what i am to him now for any other career.

and whenever he's talking in his sleep saying "i love u mommy"... i thank and praise the Lord for putting me in such wonderful, sweetest journey one could ever experience 😊

Sunday, December 11, 2016

14 days till Christmas

it's been a while since the last update because i got really busy with the 2nd small business i started this year plus another income source (crossing fingers) waiting to get prioritized. seems like i'm fighting a useless battle with time when all it offers me is the chance to hit the sack. dilemma is, there's an explosion of brand new ideas in my brain, filling out my to-do list and it takes serious inner peace to get a hold of myself. it's like my cells are overcharged and stopping means to self-destroy. surely I won't be able to accomplish anything without my source of strength, my inspiration, my source of wisdom and joy. so Lord i thank You for letting me know who You are, for keeping Your promises, for having my best interest at heart, for not depriving me of anything and everything that's going to be good for me. You truly are our awesome God!

Wednesday, October 26, 2016


i'm so moved by this extraordinary prenup video of karel marquez and her fiancé, that i've been playing it over and over again and even shared it to my friends. the words were perfect, the scenes...

maybe i like it because it's like seeing my own happy ending.

congratulations karel, sa wakas :)

Sunday, October 16, 2016

DIY skirt and other things

what a joy to be able to actually make and wear something you just once had in mind! i made this not a very long time ago along with another skirt which i've upcycled from a worn out camouflage short pants. this one is just a simple pencil skirt made with a yard of stretchy fabric. not complicated at all until i added my "signature" slit over there as a newbie slash adventurer, and so i messed up with the seam alignment, scratched my head, decided to make things right and then tada! i'm so grateful that this turned out alright ;)

seeing other hobbyists share their work and knowledge they've learned through their sewing (or actually any craft) journey makes me eager and inspired to go ahead try things out. and each time i was able to prove that when you put your heart to something that you want to fulfill, along with prayers and guidance from above, you will be able to do it!

just like how i got so inspired by Jon Bon Jovi, Mariah Carey, Switchfoot and many other artists to write, record, and perform songs a few years ago. i received lots of emails and inquiries then about how i did them, what drove me to write this song that song etc. and the truth is, during those times all i wanted was to express what's in my heart and i believe that it was God who taught me the words and played the melody in my mind because i can only remember the feeling but not the actual word selection and tuning. i don't know how to explain it further or if there's even a need to. but anyway, in a few weeks, hopefully i'll have the time to sit down, record and share some of the drafts that were squashed under my pillow. in the meantime, i'll reward myself with one of God's greatest gifts to mankind - sleep. Zzzz...

Thursday, September 29, 2016

4 truths about God in the midst of tragedy

someone asked me today about the life testimony of a woman i truly adore for her love of the Lord and her means of serving Him. so i had to google her up to make sure that i will be relaying the whole truth, nothing more and nothing less. and thankfully i found the video which i will link to later, watched it with tears in my eyes (ah! never mind, always happens) and got these 4 TRUTHS ABOUT GOD that i firmly believe we should all know and hold on to under whatever circumstance we are in:

1. GOD IS SOVEREIGN. He could stop something from happening BUT He did not.

2. GOD KNOWS EVERYTHING. He knows what is best for us.

3. GOD LOVES US. so much.

4. GOD IS HOLY, HE HAS NO MALICE. He does not purposely allow people to suffer unnecessarily.

i am sure that i did not come across these truths tonight for no reason. yes, they are not even new to me but this exact moment that i heard them again is God's answer to the silent queries spinning randomly in my head as the days pass.

i, too, sometimes question why bad things seem to happen to good people. being a Christian or obeying the Lord, resisting sin and choosing to do good in honor of Him, do not and cannot exempt one from problems, heartaches and other tragedies. but the difference it makes when you know the TRUTH about our Creator is you know that what men meant for evil, God meant for something good (Genesis 50:20). He can turn anything upside down, make all things work together for good to those who love Him (Romans 8:28). we have a choice to turn away from Him and then what? or to fully surrender to Him, trust that He is faithful, remember that He did not take me this far only to abandon me. i am just thankful that my options are so easy to weigh. i choose to be with my God.

and oh, here's the link to the video that i promised earlier. thank u for dropping by!


Tuesday, September 20, 2016

i will be here

tonight's the first time i heard the new version of this song by the same artist, Steven Curtis Chapman on Spotify. this song never fails to make me cry as i take each and every word to heart. i feel so overwhelmed by the kind of love it sings about; something so rare, seemingly impossible to exist these days but when you know that God is the one writing your love story, you get this weird feeling of joy and excitement, maybe teary-eyed and hopeful that His best is on his way.

the lyrics:

Tomorrow morning if you wake up
And the sun does not appear
I... I will be here
If in the dark we lose sight of love
Hold my hand and have no fear
'Cause I... I will be here

I will be here
When you feel like being quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen
And I will be here
When the laughter turns to crying
Through the winning, losing and trying
We'll be together
'Cause I will be here

Tomorrow morning if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I... I will be here
As sure as seasons were made for change
Our lifetimes were made for these years
So I... I will be here

I will be here
So you can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you
And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you mean to me
I will be here, hmmm

I will be true to the promise I have made
To you and to the One who gave you to me

And just as sure as seasons were made for change
Our lifetimes were made for these years
So I... I will be here
We'll be together
I will be here